BEEN BLAMED AS "FEMINIST" AND THAT SOMEONE SPECIAL

For somebodies that i love the most..

And  someone who i love and care about...

Don’t want to blame my self on the idea of feminist. Dunno since, when and where begun, some people seldom blame me as a feminist. Do you know exactly the meaning of feminist? Or have you been blamed as a feminist?? Or have you ever had a friend, or relation belongs to feminist?? Or may be you are a feminist??

I bet not all of us really understood and been familiar with the nature of feminist. Involve me (honestly) so please stop blaming me as a feminist if you really don’t have any knowledge on it.

Not to mention that i againts the feminist. Totally nope and i am a girl, a woman, and the candidate of the first lady of this country ( dreaming..but it is allowed, right..hahaha).

I just flow the nature of who am i...here i am..

How i behave and act to anyone is the nature of who i am. Really big thanks and and do appreciate to my parents who really care of parenting me completely for every single things about my self, my life my sisters, my brother and my family life.

My parents always say and teach us about the norms, religion, attitude, behavior, how to interact each other and even the simplest thing such as how to respect anyone when you speak with him or her, how you eat food, how you step on the floor, how you look at someone, and the most important how you dress up.

Not to mention that because most of my family is from and work in religion institution and not to mention that because of my family is living in a culture, a very strong indigenous and I am a daughter of a pangulu (red.penghulu) who really strict about culture and religion, so I have to live like in a palace who really tide and discipline.

Honestly, much more yes,, I don’t want to be blamed as a liar.

Back to the term of feminist.

I do and I behave as what you see just now just because I really care of myself, care of you too. About the idea the way how I paint myself next and those crazy idea somehow just because it is our life, right.

Having a dream as a step mother as another side of my life or not to think about boy friend, and even avoid of discussion which is related to marriage now is totally about Principe. Thanks to anyone who really cares about me, who always try to find somebody or a boy friend to me.

It’s not the perfect time for us to think about it even I don’t care that I am 23 years old now and some of my friends already got marriage. It’s about the choice of life. Now I just want to concern about my study, career, and my future. If you ask me whether I have boyfriends or a close boy friend, yes, I have..but just a friend no more. I know how to interact to him and them. if you force me to declare whether there is someone special in my life except my parents and my prophet, yes.

And I promise you just wait for the perfect time. If I love somebody I will say to him directly in a “perfect time” later.

And even for someone who really impossible I’ll be with him next, or “used to be” in my heart because I think we are really different on the ideology, long time ago n now may be I still have a feeling for you, and get impressed of you, because your thought, smart,  your behavior, but It is impossible for us. My impression has decreased when I really know your ideology/beliefs  (liberal conservative), we are in different country and nationality, and the last you have already get engaged. I think it’s a really big building between us.

But thanks dunno it is because of you or not, I still keep my dream to go to London, England the country where you are now. And I promise if God decide us to meet again for the third time in the third different country without purposed, I will declare my feeling to you directly, and just stop by here. Don’t thing about the next episode, may be at that time I will be with anyone else. Thanks DR that used to be *****..Malaysia, Philippine have still been a good time and good memories.

Lastly, now you know right another side of me..so please don’t call  or blame me as a feminist anymore.